I keep checking facebook every five minutes but he's not on. Why is he never on when I want him to be? Why does he think he's not 'mature' enough, though hes 19! Does he think I'm not mature enough? Does that show he knows me little? Is that a sign that we should get to know eachother better before anything happens? Yes, I supose it is, and we should. Besides, he's not ready to put emotions into actions. Now, I dare say, he'll read this before long and know it's about him. I wonder if he would mind me mentioning all of this to all of you, whoever you are. Then, none of you know who in heck I'm talking about, or I dare say what I'm even on about. So, in theory, it shouldn't matter. He doesn't know you, and you don't know him. I don't think he'll care, I hope. Damn, I don't feel like posting this - but then I do. It's private but then I feel like this blog is a void that I just spit thoughts into, but I know it's not and people, people I know, do, infact, read this - for petes sake they comment. Yet, I'm going to post this. I might delete it before long though...
p.s. I suddenly wish my relatives didn't know about this blog.
these are both my love and cry songs